SPANKING PROBLEM! HELP!
My daughter is 21 months old. We were finger painting. I told her several time not to touch the floor...furniture..table..and so on with her wet painted hands. She did an ok job listening at first. I praised her.
After about 15 minutes she kept trying to touch things other than her paper! I told her over and over not to. Then I started cleaning up and said painting time was over. On the way to the bathtub to wash our hands..she tried to touch several things. I told her no no no. Then IN the bathtub she grabbed my nail brush before i could stop her.
I was really annoyed and yelled "NO" Then she grabbed a rubber duck and I just lost it! I smacked the duck out of her hands. I took her out the tub and hit her on her butt 3 times. She cried. I took her to her room and hit her 2 more times on her butt. She yelled and cried. I put her in her bed and left the room.
5 minutes later, I went back in the room and she talked to me like nothing ever happened. Laughing and jumping around on her bed and singing songs.
I feel horrible!!!! just awful! like a horrible bad mother!!! I know I must have hurt her because my hand hurt! and my hand was red. I just lost it! I don't know why! I told her over and over to NOT touch anything! She is 21 months old...i never hit her before. Why did this happen? How do i make sure it never happends again? HELP!