I have to be honest, I am in a dull relationship. my boyfriend lives with me and my 2 children. I work full time, own my own home, I have a new car, It bothers me that he does not have a car. even a used one. everything is in my name including the bills. I gave him total control of my bank account, He annoyes me. he is overweight, I think I am with him because I can't think for myself, he helps me out with the kids, but he can be very annoying. I don't know how to be a complete single mom. we waste too much money, I feel lazy with him, I used to be in good shape and exercise alot. I know it's a bad situation. I am numb everyday, tired, depressed, anxietal. he constantly calls me. I am living a lie. only a good friend sees how i feel sometimes, I am scared to be alone. I know its wrong. how can I wake up and be strong and take care of myself.