I dont know what to do.
Hi, I am Jessica and I am 17. I dated a boy named Ryan for 3 years 4 months 1 week and 6 days. He passed away on July 19th, 2006 and we were still dating. We had dated from the day of my 13th birthday until the day he died. We were so close. We loved each other alot. On my 16th birthday he had ask me to marry him in 2008 after we both graduated high school and I had said yes. Then 4 months 1 week and 6 days later God called him home and every since that day I havent been the same and my friends say I think about it to much. I i get upset over it alot but I cant help it. Does anybody have any advice for me on how to cope with his lose because I need to figure out something. Every year on his birthday I cry, every month on the 19th I cry, at night before I go to sleep I cry and I dont think its healty, and I havent been able to date anyone and feel right dating anyone because I feel like I was cheating on him still and I know I'm not but it feels like i am. Please help me